Hello again, old friend
Carrying with you that old ache,
Like a rheumatism
I recognize you, unkind familiar,
as you gnaw at my belly.
My throat clenches and my heart quickens.
Like a scorching lava
Oozing through my veins.
What is it, this desire that pulls at platinum threads?
I thrash and scream
And it’s a silent roar
Through my confused mind.
You are never kind
Enough to enlighten,
In the barren halls of my thoughts,
One word echos:
What you are just floats,
on the cusp of consciousness.
You flit out of the reach
Of my groaning attempts at capture.
Hello again, old friend.
You cabalistic ghost.
You offer no explanation, and no comfort.
I’m forever alone with the sense of an unwitnessed miracle,
And a happiness left unfulfilled.
Powerless, I wrap my arms around my aching heart.
The echo comes as a tidal wave,
beating me as it crashes.
Bruised, bloodied, scarred,
I cling to that one word as an anchor